Absent, not Missing

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Some of you may have been wondering where I have been.  Well it’s kind of hard to explain, but I have been withdrawn for a short time.  That’s the only way I can think of to describe it.  At times, I find myself in a dark mood, and have to restructure my thoughts to get past it.  I don’t understand it, nor do I try any longer.  I just didn’t want to post any dark maybe depressing articles, so I have refrained from blogging for a week.  I think it’s part of my introverted personality, I’m such a loner.


I spent an enjoyable three days out in the woods, and managed to get my sparks a glowing once again.  It always amazes me just how much the simplicity of country life can rejuvenate my soul and spirit.  When there is naught to do but sit back and enjoy the beauty of mother nature, it’s hard to stay down.  One of the things that always brings a smile to my face is the unmatched beauty of a sunrise or sunset. 


The night sky was lit brightly by the moons magical glow of silver light.  Stars shone and flickered  in their mystical formations.  My mind trying diligently to trace lines between them as if they were a connect the dot game.  Dreaming up different pictures and meaning for each one.  Slowly the grey of dawn proceeded, turning a soft vibrant purple.  The clouds absorbing the suns rays, and turning shades of orange then red and yellow.  It looked as if a fire had been lit just above the horizon.  The sun slowly rising, bringing with it the warmth and security of a new day.  Shinning its light upon the beauty of the countryside. 

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Margot Is Your Hero said...

I find myself in those moods every now and again. They eventually pass, you can not make it go away, but something will happen and it'll fade away either immediatly or slowly. Either way I hope you find yourself feeling better.

Cloudia said...

Just beautiful! I identify with your words today Aloha-

derfina said...

Weird. I was just sitting here wondering if I'm manic depressive! Glad you're back among the blogging. You were missed.

Lilly's Life said...

Oh Eric. I think lots of us like being alone too. We are probably all deep thinkers too. Strangely it must be the time of year as I too have been feeling like that. I can't even use winter as an excuse as its hot and summer here.

I think you just have to go with the flow and a break does us all good. I just assumed you were busy or out hunting, shooting and having fun.

Beautiful post and so very well written as usual. Glad you are back and feeling refreshed.

Kel said...

I suspect that having to suffer the dark times is part and parcel of being human. Goodness knows I've been there . . . had a few pretty rough ones over the years. For the occasional, modest, downturns I find that I get through them faster if I just give in, wallow about in the darkness ~ let myself cry, rage, rant; let out whatever is burbling bubbling blistering away.

Whenever I start a painting the first colors I lay in are the darkest tones. The brights are held best on the foundation of the those deeps; rather like your sunrise.

the walking man said...

As long as the light has breached the darkness of night it is good to sit and ponder.

Tara R. said...

While I still prefer the mountains too, sometimes the sunrises and sunsets at the beach can be just as breathtaking. Glad to hear you are feeling rejuvenated.

Shadow said...

the way you describe nature is peaceful and revitalising in itself.

confused said...

it is something we share and withdrawing to refocus is a good way to balance one self

Sandee (Comedy +) said...

There is nothing better than the countryside to rejuvenate oneself. I'm glad that happened for you.

Have a terrific day. :)

Summer said...

Good to see you back!

Barbara(aka Layla) said...

You were missed. I am very much like you but wish I had the foresight NOT to post when I am in a dark mood, sometimes it helps me but then I risk bringing others down. I wish I lived somewhere like you do...I would love it.

Glad you're back and doing better.

tashabud said...

Just like Lilly, I thought your absence was because of hunting every weekend. And of course, you have to rest before the weekend comes again for another hunting trip. At least that's what hubby does.

I have those moments, too, much less now that I'm busy surfing the net. My mind is too consumed to think of myself or what I'm feeling.

I'm glad that you were able to go to your retreat and that you now feel rejuvenated.

Really enjoyed reading another excellent nature post from you.

Smile Cowboy and have a great week.


maggie's mind said...

So glad that you are able to let nature's beauty work its magic to heal your soul. Such a pretty sunset picture!

Eric S. said...

@ Margot, your right you can't make it go away. I just try to change my thought process, and look at things from a different angle. Usually with a little effort things work out.

@ Cloudia, Thanks, not sure whether to be happy or sad you identify with my words.

@ Derfina, I know that feeling, LOL. Thanks.

@ Lilly, Thank you, I know I seem to repair myself best when left to my own means. Can't wait for your book.

@ Kel, hey big sis, a little ranting and raving always seems to help.

@ The Walking Man, Yes indeed, I try never to let the darkness last.

@ Tara, I bet those sunrises and settings are wonderful. I can just imagine the added quality of the water.

@ Shadow, Thank you, I'm glad you like.

@ Confused, yup, sometimes its best to pull back and examine things within.

@ Sandee, You are so right. Thank the gods for nature and all its beauty.

@ Summer, thanks its good to be back among the living.

@ Barbara, thanks, I live for my time in the country. There just is nothing better except maybe back home in the country.

@ Tashabud, yep I was hunting, but that was not all. thankfully, I get to spend the time I have in the woods, or I fear I would lose my mind at times, LOL. Smiling and trying to get that old cowboy hat to fit.

@ Maggies Mind, Yes if it wasn't for nature, I would be lost. The picture was a suggestion from Zumantra, a utility I use with Live Writer.

redchair said...

Hi Eric,
I was wondering where you'd gone.

I think you've been through a lot these past couple of months. Anyone would need to sort through their thoughts.

-But i have to say. I don't think it would be a bad idea to write when you feel dark. It might help you get your glow back quicker and you never know who you might help by talking about you feel sometimes.

June Saville said...

Better than anything in a pharmacy Eric that's for sure!
I've been away for almost a week too but my days weren't so tranquil. More's the pity ...
June in Oz

forsythia said...

Even if it's c*o*l*d outside (that's always my excuse in wintertime for not taking a walk), I know I always feel better if I can just overcome my inertia. Thanks for the reminder to get up (off the couch) and get out (of the house.) Too much reading or blogging or TV is NOT a good thing. We are descended from hunter-gatherers who are supposed to spend time outdoors walking.

soulMerlin said...

All atheletes go on and off form. It's natural that the flow of life will cause everyone to expand and contract in their lives and communications.

The good spin-off of the whole thing, is that you have captured the solitary mood of that stage and it is obvious from the comments that you have struck a chord.


LceeL said...

Missed you, old son. Glad you're back at it. And if you haven't noticed - those dark posts you don't want to make - are pretty much a fact of life out here and part and participle of life out here.

I am glad you find comfort and solace in alone time in the country - at least you know where to find yours - but if it ever gets to the point where even THAT isn't enough - the dark post and resulting comments might just make a believer out of you.

I Ponder said...

Seeking solitude in nature is the best way to ground oneself from the turmoil of everyday life. :)

Jena Isle said...

That's an awesome sight. I love sunrises and sunsets too. They do have a unique calming and rejuvenating effect, that is not equaled. At times we are all entitle to our quiet moments alone, this would help us reconnect back to our inner selves. Take care and happy holidays.

Jena Isle said...

That should read ENTITLED. Cheers.

Jana said...

I am glad your doing better. My husband goes through dark times too. Getting outside with no distractions always makes him feel better too. Take care.

Geri said...

I love the country, and at times solitude is exactly what a person needs.

June Saville said...

I just read my comment again Eric - I hope that I am normally more sensitive.
I reckon that only sensitive people really suffer. I do hope things are on the up now for you.
Kel seems a wonderful sister ...

Eric S. said...

@ Vikki, Thanks for your concern. You know, part of my problem was that I simply have no excuse for feeling the way I did. There are people far worse off than I , and with more serious problems. I think I was a little perturbed with myself for the way I was feeling.

@ June, Your right, there is nothing better than nature to sure what ails a person. I didn't find your comment unsympathetic at all. I hope your doing better. Your right Kel is a wonderful sis.

@ Forsythia, You are right. Too much bolgging, and too much reading the daily newspaper may well have been part of the problem. It does help to get out and get active.

@ Henry, thank you, yes we do go through a strange flux of currents at times. I guess that is just part of life.

@ Lou, Thanks, you know I was tempted to write a few, but did not want to be selfish. Like I said there are many a person these days far worse of than I. I may yet figure out how to word my strange feelings. When I do be sure I will post them.

@ Cheryl, Too true, too true.

@ Jena, Thanks, You know those sunrises are what keep me going. And I constantly crave my solitude. I wonder what that says about me?

@ Jana, I think the distractions are part of the problem. Thank you for your comment.

@ Geri, yes it is, very nice.

Allison said...

I too am glad you are back and was wondering what was up. As humans I believe we HAVE to have our dark place just to recognize the bright ones at times.

Kay said...

I'm glad you're feeling better, Eric. I really do believe it's normal at times to just not feel exactly jumping up and down cheery. It's good to find peace and calm to rejuvenate yourself.

Eric S. said...

@ Allison, Thank you, yes we do need those times to realize and remind us of what we have.

@ Kay, Thank you, yes indeed it is normal. I could not imagine if we we were all happy and cheerful all the time.

Liara Covert said...

Physical life is incredibly magical. It offers doorways into diverse enchanting places. You create a personal sense of time and space. We welcome your blog presence when you choose to share parts of yourself.


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