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I want to thank everyone for their kind words and helpful thoughts after my last post. N-M is still in the hospital, and will be for a little while. She has gone through her first surgery, and is recuperating. She has a broken arm, skinned or de-gloved hand, some pretty serious road rash, and a ton of bumps, bruises, and scratches. Her hand is the worst, and she may still lose her pinky. The doctor says he’s trying to save it, but is not very confidant that it’s going to work.
We do have some new concerns. Evidently she has had a reaction to some of the medications, and has quit breathing a couple of times. They are working to figure out what is going on, and what the cause is. They are also going to be doing some more tests because she thinks the nurse is her cousin, and a few other strange inconsistencies. One of the biggest problems we are trying to deal with is her serious depression now that she has these added burdens. We are worried to say the least, because she does not see how lucky she was. She is choosing to see how unlucky she is, and feeling miserable.
I feel like I need to explain my last post. Even just a few short years ago, I would have never, ever opened up and spewed forth my feelings. I have been changing a lot lately, and I credit this blog as one of the reasons. I was raised to not show any feelings or emotions, for they give away your weaknesses. It’s not like I was told that is the way to be, it was what I saw being demonstrated to me. When all this happened the other day, I felt like I needed to get it all off my chest, and the first place I turned was my blog. I felt at the time if I didn’t share it, I was going to close some of those doors I had just recently opened. This blog has turned into a form of therapy in a way. It gives me a sounding board for my thoughts, and since I’m not a good talker, it’s easier for me to write them out. I’m staying positive, and trying to keep my feelings a little more open, but its not always easy.
I’ll try to keep everybody informed, and keep working on those closed doors in my head. Hopefully things will settle down a bit, and I’ll get some good stories going again. Again thank you everybody for your thoughts and prayers.